I filed the divorce papers today. I never thought that I would say those words. I don't feel like I have a choice, he refuses to give me any money, except that whopping 100.00  a week. He's forcing my hand and I know that he is going to say that I rushed into it. How could I possibly just end our marriage like that, so quickly. He;s going to say that I didn't love him all these years If I could just end things like that
I wanted my marriage to work, I tried to make it work, tried so hard, over and over. And here we are
So today will be one of those days that I will never forget, just like my wedding day.
Driving to work this morning and I was listening to Chrisette Michele as I have for the last few weeks but for some reason I didn't feel like it today so I turned on the radio and I didn't feel like that either, I grabbed a CD, it didn't matter which one as I wasn't looking for anything particular and it was my gospel CD. One that I made just for myself. As I started listening to the music and letting it wash over me I started calling on Jesus to help me. I forgot how that music makes me feel, how it makes me want to reach out to HIM, lean on HIM, and hold on to HIM. In those moments I remembered who I am. I have to just keep remembering.
Right now I am forgetting.