The beginning of the divorce

I'm starting this blog because I know I'm not the only one, but I'm the only one I know.
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My marriage of 26 years is over. We built a family, we built a home, we built a life and now it's over. How do you tear down 25 years in 1 year. Seems impossible. I never thought that this would happen but for the last year the writing has been on the wall. I'm tired of being afraid of him, tiptoeing around everything, trying to keep the peace, being stalked and harassed constantly on a daily basis. waking in the morning or not sleeping at all, with my stomach hurting, hands shaking and heart racing because I don't know what he has in store for me. Not wanting to go home if he's there. So I finally left on Sept 5, 2010.
The police, of course had to be involved. Violence was involved. but I'm out!
What do I do next?  What do I want? Where do I go.
I WANT FREE!
But how do I get it.

Ronnie